I wrote this in a moment of passion. Perhaps I should have let it sit a little bit longer before posting, but I’ve done that a few times before–kept these feelings tucked away and promised myself that if it ever happened again I would do what I have thought so many times of doing, but hadn’t done yet. This may not be the best way to go about this, but I am tired of people writing off my homesickness with the phrase, “But you’re in Hawaii,” as if we had entered a magical realm where everyone is happy and the spirit of aloha is so rampant that you would think that perhaps we had somehow become a part of the City of Enoch. Newsflash: we’re still in the telestial kingdom.
We live halfway across the ocean, and good portions of the way across a continent from most of our friends and all of our family. We are an odd case in our neighborhood, and even in our town, because we are not students, but we look like we could be. We inhabit a precarious position here and nobody seems to know how to act around us, and we often feel ignored. We are also some of the few people we know on this island who don’t have any sort of family to have dinner with on Sunday nights, or to hangout with on lazy weekends. But we are busy people, too. We both work, we spend a lot of time on our fundraising for Team in Training and running to prepare for our marathon (which is only three weeks away), plus we have our church callings and responsibilities as well. And we try to keep in touch with our friends and families, to let them know that we love them and think about them often, with the hope that they will help us feel their love for us, too, because, and I’m not going to lie to you, sometimes living in Hawaii stinks. It is hard to be away from everybody we know and to know that there is nobody here that needs us as much as we need them. We want to be a part of everyone’s lives, but it is hard when we feel that no one cares if we are a part of their lives.
To those of you who do let us know that you are thinking of us, who try to keep in touch, and let us know that we are still as much a part of your lives as you are of ours, thanks. We really appreciate it. We love getting phone calls, comments on our blogs, and e-mails. They make our days.